Friday, September 19th - 2003

Cheeney Hall, Manchester CT
Doors are at 7:30. $5 Admission. All Ages welcome

The lineup will be:
Strike the Colors 8-8:30
Perfect Salesman 8:45 - 9:15
The Arcade 9:30 - 10:00
Bionic Man 10:15 -10:45
SaveFace 11:00 - 11:30

I will be at the venue by 5-5:30. I would encourage everybody to get there as close to 6 as humanly possible, to allow for load-in, setup, and assorted BS.

For the out of staters, the club is at 177 Hartford Road - Manchester, CT 06040. If you can't decipher the Mapquest directions, let me know. As I told you, we will be recouping expenses first, then tossing the travelling bands gas money and travel money. No guarantees, but I will try to at least get you some cash. And we shouldn't have any problem finding you guys a place to crash.

If there is anything else y'all need, let me know.

Travis
SaveFace

[Music: Bend and Not Break - Dashboard Confessional]

You're goin' down! FOR THEIVING!
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[Music: Freakish - Saves the Day]

there are times like these when i wish i wasnt so talented at biting my tongue

today was alright. until after school i was feeling very odd. listless as i was later told. so i played guitar a lot. didnt actually do any work. heh. then i became hungry...du ndun dun and went to chipotle with lucy and then wandered the dangerous back streets of residential college park. then chillage. definately made my day. so now im sitting. it was a nice walk home in the rain. i love the rain. theres just someting about the feel of a soft, light mist on you, something about the smell. rain is a great wonder. so yeah. another interesting thing...flashbacks...those "wonderful" things that remind me why i dont do drugs anymore. it was eerie/eery/earee. snakes in trees. toads on the street, well there actually was a toad/frog in the road. but yeah it was a nice walk. not scary flashbacks like before. then standing on the median of 410 as a tractortrailer speeds about 1 foot from my face. it was misty and windy. smelled kinda bad too. so yeah. today turned out really well in the end. and. tomorrow is its academic taping. then rockin out with the chillage at marianne's. shall be great funness. night to all. im out. tell all the english boys you meet about the american boy back in the states

[Music:The Crowing - Coheed and Cambria]

there's no "I" in team, but there sure as hell is a "me"

[Music: For Love - The Hope Conspiracy]

My inner child is sixteen years old!

Life's not fair! It's never been fair, but while
adults might just accept that, I know
something's gotta change. And it's gonna
change, just as soon as I become an adult and
get some power of my own.


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[Music: Violent and Gray - The Hope Conspiracy]

la...today was good. escaped from school to its academic mathes...we lossed every one haha we suck. ah fun times at the mall though. lets see.. sooo guitar...im tired. im random. and tired..not as depressed anymore....got an mp3 player....so tight...doing better in ap calc...which i dont think i was ever doign bad...i just thought i was. oh well. things are contently moving on.

[Music: Torn and Weathered - Yesterdays Rising]

It hasn't been that long
Since we drank to the sunset, until it was gone
And down with it went our pain and fear
As we slowly broke contact
more and more with every beer
And we passed out in each other's arms
Both admitting we'd never felt better
Never felt so warm
But awoke in each other's eyes
Without wearing a stitch of clothing
We were both deeply in disguise
And maybe I just set aside
The fact that you were broken hearted
In my own special selfish way
And if I hadn't set aside
The fact that you were broken hearted
Hell knows where your heart would be today
Maybe with me

It seems like it's been so long
Since we kissed through the darkness
Until it was dawn
Up with it came our pain and fear
That we'd already lost each other
We both knew that the end was near
Maybe I just set aside
The fact that you were broken hearted
In my own special selfish way
And if I hadn't set aside
The fact that you were broken hearted
Hell knows where your heart would be today
Maybe with me Maybe with me
Maybe with me Maybe with me
Maybe with me Maybe with me

i make things so complicated...sorry. i dont even know what to say...damn loss for words

[Music: Reflections - From Autumn to ashes]

you break my heart into a thousand pieces and you say its because i deserve better?

[Music: Take her To the Music Store - From Autumn to ashes]

do you know the feeling when a song is so brilliantly composed and played and sung, that it juts makes you cry? well i do. or maybe im just full of emotions or tired....prolly the song though.

[Music: Milligram Smile - From Autumn To Ashes]

" November 4th 2001)If you wern't at the show last night you missed one of the most disatrious, stressful, fun, eventful, crazy, nights ever. First i just want to thank everyone who came out. everyone who didn't break nabeens house. and most of all i want to than nabeens mom for dealing with all the kids in her house. thank you very much. I would like to say fuck you to the people at the community center. yet again I experience discrimination from people. we didn;t do anything wrong at the community center.Yet we were kicked out. that is fucked up. but we reacted strong. moved our stuff to nabeens as fast as we could. and found ourselves in a more closed and intimate enviroment. All the bands that played last night,The Defiant,drown under stars, our burning skies, belief in promises( i screamed 2 sets in a row)and as much as anyone, I want to thank you in being a part of our history last night. the final nail in the coufin. that was the best show we have ever played. and that was becuase everyone in the house made it that way. Its sad too say farwell and its really sad that i dont have that moment on tape. but for those who were there including me it will be a night i contain in my heart. all the images I will remmeber. the sounds of people screaming with us. thank you. I will cherish it forever. I'd hate to speak for everyone else in my band but i think they would agree with me. that that will be a night etched in stone that we will all remember till the day we lay our heads.thankyou 3HOUR TOUR/VANZETTI 27/TIME OUT OF LINE 1998-2001 ~Steve "

of course id be love...adn of course i wrap myself in the nostalgia that is time out of line


Love


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[Music: Carving Days - Time Out of Line]

i can strain to smile as my head rests bleeding against the mirror in front of me.
i cant help but stare through the streams of blood and sweat at the broken face
and i strain to see the tears streaming down my cheeks
the television flickers a cold haze and my life flashes before my eyes
there's just so much to do that i can never do
so many questions i can never ask you
hell i couldn't even ask myself to speak the questions
maybe one day when i see you i'll tell you i love you
and you can bet it will be the best kiss you've ever had
but you see it could never be because there's too much blood
it's trickling down my mirror, pouring in my eyes and all i see is crimson
the music almost seems beautiful but it feels so distant and quiet
i'll close my eyes and i'll pray to god that i'll never wake up again
and if you asked me now i could really care less if my life was
as fleeting as the hope that might broken heart would mend itself

its brilliant how you make up your mind like youve made it up

i wonder...im working on "amy" right now...recorded some trial guitar tracks....like it so far. ay recycling old songs. so yeah thats in the works. i hpe it doesnt sound too bad when im done. i gotta sing lower. itd be better. so now, yeah im sittin. being tired. the coffee i made was kidna bad. i need better grounds. sorry lucy, no cappuccino tomorrow :(
yeeeah im sittin. i have work to do but im much too tired. so ill sit online and wallow in the mess my room is. i cant find aaanything. so ill rummage around. and sit. and stare. maybe play some guitar...practice practice practice. maybe ill be famous one day...i can only hope. if only hope wasnt so fleeting.

[Music: Milligram Smile - From Autumn To Ashes]

life? whatever, life can suck it. ugh. tired and sore. clean though.

[Music: The Quiet Things That No One Ever Knows - Brand New]

it seemed appropriate this morning...

I got a twenty-dollar bill
That says no one's ever seen you without makeup.
You're always made up.
And I'm sick of your tattoos
and the way you always criticize the Smiths.
and Morrissey.

And I know that you're a sucker for anything acoustic.
But when I say let's keep in touch,
I really mean I wish that you'd grow up.
This is the first song for your mix tape.
It's short just like your temper,
But somewhat golden like the afternoons
We used to spend before you got too cool.

I got a twenty-dollar bill
that says no one's ever seen you without makeup.
You're always made up.
And I'm sick of your tattoos
And the way you don’t appreciate Brand New
And me.

And I know that you're a sucker for anything acoustic.
But when I say let's keep in touch,
I hope you know I mean I wish that you’d grow up
This is the first song for your mix tape
And it’s short just like your temper
But somewhat golden like the afternoons
We used to spend before you got too cool.

Yeah, but I wish you were my shadow

[Music: Mix Tape - Brand New]

man tonight was awesome...surrounded by beautiful ladies and one im lap..and roger. hes a pretty lady too. hehe. my hair is red and orange. i like it. marianne rocks at dyeing hair. we chilled for long time and it was a really good day. one of the bestest in a while. sigh. still not too sure of what to do. im workin on it. time time time. tomorrow is dashboard. me and lucy and her friend are going. itll be awesome. i am off to sleep. out. yaay being comfy.

[Music: The Quiet Things That No One Ever Knows - Brand New]

today was alright...school....well yeah i thought it was all good. but now it just turns out everythign sucks...heh threw off my whole philosophy. i was rather disgruntled. but i got over it. had quite a nice chill dinner and conversation/wandering in college park after school. theeen chilled at marcella's with lucy, roger, molly and of course marcella...oh and me. i was there too....it was fun. must be done more often.
so confused and unsure of what do. it seems so close yet so far away. just unreachable... i dont know what im gonna do. its all i can really think about. but....i dont know...time....now for sleep if i can get any anymore...out.

P.S. sorry im so boney ;)

[Music: Hey - The Movielife]

scooore!! this song is now recorded and online....feel free to download and take a gander, or listen even. its in the a friend too far link at left...happily ever after

there was once something so much more
once upon a time...put us here
im not waiting anymore
obsolete fairy tales wont cut it
dreams of life and dreams love just wont do

dont you just love treading ice cold water in june?
yeah well this is my favorite time to watch you die
keep your head above water
the silver linings are never enough
they will not suffice to keep you at bay

wrap your car around a tree
crush your skull on cold concrete
scrape the skin from your knees
i wish i had those times returned

nows the time for lost loves and regrets
dont fairy tales come true with a kiss?
heres to a sleepless night tonight
like every other night

they lived happily ever after...
and i wish i could put us here

[Music: happily ever after - a friend too far]

ok so it seems that im incereasingly introverted...when im alone anyway...i guess that would be how it always is, but when im alone, sometimes i just want to stay alone, except for a few people i like talking to or being with. i dont want to do anything. i guess when im with people im more extroverted. it just seems i choose to be alone most of the time. i choose to do my own thing. and do what i like to do when i like to do it. i havent had time for all these things i love until recently and now therye back. its making me happier. it also would appear that i am moving away from those half-friends...acquaintences you could call them, if you wish. but my friends are becoming fewer but closer. at first i was really worried about this, but not i see it as a wonderful thing. i get these really awesome people as friends. its nice to have people like that. i kinda just realized this and felt like putting it into words when laying in bed trying to go to sleep. which by the way is getting much more difficult to accomplish. i never really get enough sleep. im always awaking up every few hours and it just kills my rest. so ill just look nice and happy and energetic on the outside bvtu be completely exhuasted on the inside. thats even more tiring. but more fun. im gonna try and just do whatever. somehow i seem to have adopted this philosophy of "i dont give a fuck about this and that". its like, all the things that matter in life, i get done, but dont really think about too much. liek school. i dont hate school. its just somethign to do. all my friends are there so why shouldnt i like it? i like my teachers, so why not? sometimes i feel just like everybody else, and others im compeltely different. i dont care about school, in the sense that missing an assignment thats due in english wont freak me out. ill do it later. i do do it eventually. but i have more important things to worry about, like the next song im goign to write, or the cute girl i sit next to in class, or which piercing i should get next. there are all kinds of things flyign through my head and i jsut let them fly and think about them. and then squeeze in the psych or bio being thrown at me. i guess i should be grateful i dont have to work at school, or work. i just do it, no big deal.
then there's the me, who makes people happy. sometimes ill be at the point that im just so well off and in a good mood, ill make everyone ina good mood. or die trying. thats me, the crowd pleaser, individually though...if that makes sense. but in relationships you cant be too nice. you'll get stepped on. i don tknow how many countless times countless friends have warned me. yet every time i make the same mistake. never again. i dont think i could ever be an ass. but ive definately learned to be more assertive if anything. do what i do. im forutnate to have been through most life experiences at an early age, more or less. nah not even close to most. btu sex, drugs, rock n' roll. i mean im living the dream. sex too early in life, way too many drugs. i woudlnt for the life of me wish to go back and change anything. its all experience taht i can never get again. ive learned so many things from those mistakes. beign depressed for 9th adn 10th grade made me realize that no one is going to make me happy or "fix" me. i have to do this shit myself. and look, i did. and ive coem to be the person i love to be. this is who i am and i like it heh. and its magnificant when you can find someone who you can be with, and be totally yourself. i mean completely. no gimicks or hidden faults. just be. im so very lucky to have a good friend like that.
so yeah im going for my dream. "a friend too far" is what i want to do. no matter if my voice is strange. no matter if i recorded my songs on my computer, im going to work at them and damnit ill get signed to a label. maybe not anytime soon. i even may hook up with my another struggling musician with an absolutely amazing voice. wiht my guitar skills and his vocals and guitar, we can rule the world! haha... but this is what im going in life. im living. fuck everything else. me first. no one else. yeah its selfish, but its how i get through the day wihtout killing someone, or myself., or at least wanting to. this is life and its pretty damn short. so enjoy the shit you have while you have it. no buts. just go on and everyone else can fuck themselves. well not eeeveryone. but you get my drift. make yourself happy before anything else. if people dont like it. they can deal. this is getting long and drawn out and im tired...well not really but i shold sleep anyway. night. so much life, so little time. why sleep through it all? heh cos ill talk like im drunk and shift left instead of right ;) so in conclusion, sleep is good.

[Music: Collapse and Crush - Isis]

killer!! i finally got one of my own songs uploaded. go go go. hehe. im exctied. so much time....like afternoon. well its done. not the best singing. criticism is appreciated... so go to the a friend too far link at left and download it. :)

[Music: Tattered and Worn - A Friend Too Far]

for as much as i love autumn, im giving myself to ashes..

[Music: short stories with tragic endings - From Autumn to ashes]

dorks are hot!! and so is writing a killer song in a few hours....that kicks ass

tattered and worn: the story of my life

kiss me for everything i gave to you,
my shattered heart, my withering mind, the time i wasted with life
breathe me in and run your fingers along my back
cos if only i had wings id fly as far away from you as i could

im calling you out of your shell
show me who you really are
cos all these games tell me nothing
and im ashamed to say i know nothing about you

i couldnt ask for anything more than to know you
i havent found a shred of life in your magnificant lies
and you expect me to look at you and know you?
i expected so much more than a backwards stare
well its better this way, now i dont need to know you
tell me if you ever told me the truth
then id believe something in this world was real besides my grated heart


not really sure who that is...i like it though

"People say the Lord works in mysterious ways. As if that makes all the shitty things in life any sweeter. Death is equally mysterious but there's no sugar-coating that terd." - George.

[Music: Pieces Mended - The Used]

its amazing how one thing youre thinking about all day and how bad it is can be turned around completely and your day can be made just like that. its wonderful...hm fallacy of positive instance? heh....so yeah. last night made me happier....well today cooould be good. i have to see whats happenin. for now...out.

[Music: the swarm - At The Gates]

fuck ostricization...

I'm starting to fashion an idea in my head
where I would impress you
with every single word I said.
Would come out insightful or brave or smooth or charming
and you'd want to call me
And I would be there every time
you'd need me
I'd be there every time...
But for now I'll look so longingly
waiting...
For you to want me, for you need me, for you to notice me

[Music: For You To Notice - Dashboard Confessional]

One simple wish now dies.

I dont know how it feels? you think youre the only person on earth who wakes up every morning wishing there was someone else?!

its starting....my friends are dribbling away. or maybe its just me.

Another day passes by. Another attempt at love remains unrequited.
Why do I even bother? I should have learned from the past. I am but a statue.
Impervious to love. This punctured heart is mine. Becomes a handful of dust. Dust.
Hope has now wilted away. Wilted. Along with these dreams that became emptiness.
A final exit becomes clear. I am self destructive. A product of this solitude.
I am riddled with shards. One simple wish now dies. Was my request so great?
One simple wish now dies.
Was my request so great? Once again I drown in its denial. Was it so complicated?
Once again. I've been. Spit upon. Taken with a grain of salt. My life is gone.

[Music: Grain Of Salt - Poison The Well]

ok...so i got lyrics for 12 songs....cd cover art that ive photographed and put together. now, all i need is to write the music, and the hardest part, how to since it vocally, i need to just try some shit out, and see how it goes. i may like it, or i may not, but i want to hear other people's opnions, critique is always good. this is going to be it.

[Music: Bring Back The Sun - Our Lady Peace]

it has to be hard doesnt it? one little factor is so big. stops the train right in its tracks. well two factors. whys it gotta go and be so complicated? heh. time.

ive been clenching my teeth for too long
its been far too long since my friends were here
all i know is lonliness and my life is never fair
sometimes we're just alone and helpless

i once belived in myself when i believed i had it all
the more you see i have, the less is inside me
id give it all up just to have some peace of mind
and i wonder why my jaw's so sore

just sitting in my room alone
there isnt a true face in the crowd
no one means anything they think
no one thinks anything they mean

stay here by me cos you're the only
thing keeping me alive
youre the only one keeping me who i am
youre the one who makes me belive in me

home on a saturday night - a friend too far

booooooored bored bored bored!!!!!!

[Music: Escape Artist - Darkest Hour]

Nino


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[Music: Boy Crazy - A New Found Glory]

"You Shook Me All Night Long" (by AC/DC)
'Cause the walls start shaking
The earth was quaking
My mind was aching
And we were making it and you -
Shook me all night long.


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You are "Welcome to the Caribbean, love."
You're more than a little world-weary, but also
intelligent and you keep your head when things
get dodgy. You're everybody's favorite
drinking buddy, but your stubbornness does get
in the way sometimes.


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Power Rangers Movie!


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[Music: Breathe - The Prodigy]

im a loner dottie a rebel.....it seems more and more i want to be alone. except for the company of a select few that dont annoy me, or are my best friends, or are just awesome. i love spendnign time with them. but it seems most other people are fake and dont hold to their promises, or plans. confused. my legs are sore. growing. gonna be taller. life? pssh. who needs one

[Music: If I Told You This Was Killing Me, Would You Stop? - Juliana Theory]

you know how you can be at a loss for words? well, it kinda sucks. and im at a loss for thoughts....or maybe its an over abundance of thougts. so much going on. im busy inside. thinking. being. living. wondering. questioning. sigh. the phone is always dead to me.

[Music: A Plain Morning - Dashboard Confessional]

again im a sucker for a heavy breakdown....hence the odd music....dashboard to slipknot??? its the hear i swear...........it was hot as fuck...now i get naked ;) shower, crazy kids

[Music: Wait and Bleed - Slipknot]

random observation of the day....i seem to have gotten into this pattern, where i dont like that last little bit of food. liek the last bit of a poptart...i juts can bring myself to finish it. and with a bowl of noodles or something...its hard to eat the very last noodle. its very odd. ok well now im off to bed. lots to think about. people and life. i wonder if you know who you are...i wonder if tomorrow will be easier....more laid back. course it always. maybe im too laid back for my own good. or maybe i just look so laid back...i cant tell. i am usually. im tired. and rambling. mm.... girls girls girls -twisted sister. out. in. left. crap. onto the floor. night.

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[Music: The Leaving Song Part 2 - AFI]

ok so this is supppper lame....buuut haha whatever....i put my picture on "hot or not.com" purely for research purposes only...im just curious...i mostly want to see if any gay guys hit on me...im weird haha i dont know. if youre bored and dont consider me too much of a loser go here...be honest...you wont hurt my feelings. im fairly agile, i can bend and not break. buuuut i can break and take it with a smile. out.
here is the site..

[Music: New York Woman - The Stryder]

gonna rock the espresso machine tonight!! hopefully some good stuff will come of it

just some good songs i heard walking to school...


When Kelly cries, the makeup runs from her eyes
And spills the truth about how she feels inside
When Kelly screams, it usually means I'm not being me
But she's not being her, but anyway

A second chance means nothing,
'Cause nothing's learned from past mistakes
And I'm sure we felt the weight, the weight

And three whole years fall on deaf ears
I'm in no place for solitaire
Three whole years fall on deaf ears
If you can't understand our fears, it's not fair to me

Do you remember when? Kelly, do you remember when?
When I figured it was cool, and I figured wrong

A second chance means nothing,
'Cause nothing's learned from past mistakes
And I'm sure we felt the weight

And do you know how I know?
Because all those times we looked in each other's eyes,
And we ignored all the signs

And three whole years fall on deaf ears
I'm in no place for solitaire
Three whole years fall on deaf ears
If you can't understand our fears, it's not fair to me

Do you remember when? Kelly, do you remember when?
When I figured it was cool, and I figured wrong
Do you remember when? Kelly, do you remember when?
When I figured it was cool, and I figured wrong

Why do I even try? (I don't know, it's all for nothing)
Why do I even try? (I don't know, it's all for nothing)
I'm waiting for you, will you wait for me too?
Yeah wait for me, yeah wait for me, it's not fair to me

Do you remember when? Kelly, do you remember when?
When you figured it was cool, and you figured wrong
Do you remember when? Kelly, do you remember when?
When you figured it was cool, and you figured wrong
You figured wrong, you figured wrong, you figured wrong
And you figured it was cool, and you figured wrong

[Music: Kelly Song - The Movielife]

Hey, I guess I'll figure it out
The reasons why things went the way they did
And why we can't accept it
We'd fall asleep
But not before we'd exercise
The evil thing that everyone hides

We would lie there in my bed
Do you remember all those nights we never slept?
No clothes, sweaty
Doing all the things I never thought I'd do
And I did them for you

And hey, don't feel bad
But what can ever take away the boardwalk trips or us away
I think we grew up
Past the hang-ups and the evil stares
The fuck you too's and I don't care's

We would lie there in my bed
Do you remember all those nights we never slept?
No clothes, sweaty
Doing all the things I never thought I'd do
And I did them for you

Hey, I guess I'll figure it out
The reasons why things went the way they did
And why we can't accept it
We'd fall asleep
But not before we'd exercise
The evil thing that everyone hides

We would lie there in my bed
Do you remember all those nights we never slept?
And even though we brought it crashing to an end
I loved it all, and now I love my friend
I loved it all, I loved the girl, I love my friend

[Music: Hey - The Movielife]

"You dick, you're sending me to hell?!"
"Don't flatter yourself you're not that interesting."

man ive been busy...well yeah. busy. watching "dead like me" that show rocks so hard. i dont know theres just somethign aobu it that draws me to it. heh. yeeeah so ive been writing more music and just hanging around. im gonna start doing all my work riiiiight now. i have to study. and ill start doing that and keeping up with everything. its about time. school is nice. i mean its school. but i have classes with my friends exept 4th pd english with like nobody. maybe kat if she transfers which would be cool. yeeeah so. hm. now off to guitar and work. and chill. dashboard soon!!! wooo cant wait. out.

[Music: Spanaway - The Movielife]

hm ok...haha well i stole all these quizzes fro lucy

and this one????


You're Quinn. You act cutesy and popular, but you
have another side to you, one that's deeper and
even semi-intelligent. Drop those faux friends
and get a real future, willya?


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oh man...

[Music: The Taste of Ink - The Used]

YOUR SO EMO...:sigh: your an emotional person and
your friends suck, music helps you deal with
that.


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hah who would have thought :)



You fell in love and got hurt. Whether your
significant other cheated or just didn't like
you, your not dealing well. Chances are you'd
do anything to get him/her back, or maybe you
just can't wait to rip their throat out. Cheer
up kid, get over it. There's other fish in the
sea.


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[Music: Maybe Memories - The Used]

Congrats! You're Mason!


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[Music: Buried Myself Alive - The Used]

so yeah...last night a recorded me singing "brilliant dance" by dashboard. its up now, go to the "a friend too far" link at left, and at thje bottom is the song...its bad....tired and sad and yeah...download.

[Music: The Leaving Song - AFI]

fuck fuck fuck....this is the hardest thing ive ever done....FUCK!

[Music: brilliant dance -Dashboard Confessional]

You are Apple Dos. Simple and primitive with a good understanding of the common man. You're still a work in progress, but a good start.
Which OS are You?

[Music: If You Can't Leave It Be, Might As Well Make It Bleed - Dashboard Confessional]

fuck i cant write music worht shit...

ok so i think erics address, where the show will be, is 3701 41st ave or place or something....cottage city Md

I guess it's luck, but it's the same
Hard luck, you've been trying to tame
Maybe it's love, but it's like you said,
"Love is like a role that we play."

But, I believe in you so much
I could die for the words that you say
But, I believe in you so much
I could die from the words that you say

But, you're chasin' the ghost of a good thing
Haunting yourself as the real thing
It's getting away from you again
While you're chasin' ghosts

I guess it's luck, but it's the same
Hard luck, you've been trying to tame
Maybe it's love, but it's like you said,
"Love is like a role that we play."

But, I believe in you so much
I could die for the words that you say
But, I believe in you so much
I could die from the words that you say

But, you're chasin' the ghost of a good thing
Haunting yourself as the real thing
It's getting away from you again
While you're chasin' ghosts

Just bend the pieces til they fit
Like they were made for it
But, they weren't meant for this
No, they weren't meant for this

Just bend the pieces til they fit
Like they were made for it
But, they weren't meant for this

Chasin' the ghost of a good thing
Haunting yourself as the real thing
It's getting away, away, away, away from you again

Chasin' the ghost of a good thing
Haunting yourself as the real thing
It's getting away from you again
While you're chasin' ghosts

[Music: Ghost of a Good Thing - Dashboard Confessional]

damn...made a website in 20 minutes...its up. so yeah im tried. practice was good. guitar=awesome....time for bed. night

[Music: Ghost of a Good Thing - Dashboard Confessional]

wont you hold me now
i will not bend i will not break
wont you hold me now
i will not bend i will not break

[Music: Bend and Not Break - Dashboard Confessional]

Carve your heart out yourself
Hopelessness is your cell
Since you've drawn out these lines
Are you protected from trying times?

Man it takes a silly girl to lie about the dreams she has
Lord it takes a lonely one to wish that she had never dreamt at all
Oh Lord, now, there you go with hope again
Oh, you're so sure I'll be leaving in the end

Dig a ditch deep enough
To keep you clear of the sun
You've been burned more than once
You don't think much of trust

Man it takes a silly girl to lie about the dreams she has
Lord it takes a lonely one to wish that she had never dreamt at all
Oh Lord, now, there you go with hope again
But I'll be sure your secret is safe with me
Oh, you're so sure I'll be leaving in the end
Treating me like I'm already gone

But I'm not, I will stay where you are always
I will stay, I will stay, I will stay (all of now)

[Music: Carve Your Heart Out Yourself - Dashboard Confessional]

so today was just another old day...worked...it was hot as shit outside...one of the hottest days of summer if not the hottest. tiring. so i cam home and sat around. then me and lucy went to the park and i played guitar and we chilled at her house and then talked with her sister for a while. it was cool and chill. i like playing guitar and singing. tomorrow a bit of jamming with shane to get some guitar stuff worked out for the show friday. i cant wait. and im buying the marshall head...man so tight...sigh. still bittersweet. me and ida are still on sucky terms. i dont know. i havent talked to her. first time in a very long time ive gone a day without any sort of communication. i think we are both just tired and stressed. as usual. and blow things out of proportion. maybe i keep fucking up. i dont know. we need to talk about whats going on. that would help. if you read this, then well, yeah.
but yeah, so sunday me and lucy are going to get tickets to dashboard for september...maybe her friend adrienne might come. i cant wait. good ol chris carrabba....ive learned his name isnt dashboard. fiinally...out.

[Music: Carry This Picture - Dashboard Confessional]

XkellyveronicaX: yeah, you proly will
XkellyveronicaX: you're pretty damn talented
XkellyveronicaX: and you have ambition
XkellyveronicaX: so there ya go
Tre4222: haha i hope so
XkellyveronicaX: you're already kinda famous, everyone knows you on the "scene"
Tre4222: do they?
XkellyveronicaX: they do
Tre4222: awesome
XkellyveronicaX: word
XkellyveronicaX: no one knows who i am, so i have to make friends on the scene by association. for example, i was at a show in a group of ppl, remaining silent, and somehow some guy named sam said somethin asking someone if you were touring with bionic man this summer. and i jumped in and was like "yes! trevor is, but not for very long bc he has to work and his parents wont let him tour for too long." and he was like "you know trevor?" and i was like "yup" and then we continued conversing b/c of that. i am a looser all on my own


thanks kelly that made my day!! oh and show, bionic man house friday the 22nd of August at the Bionic House in Cottage City. if you dont know, ask me where it is. this might be your first chance to see me play guitar live....which i have almost never done....itll rip.

[Music: The Rise and Fall of An Empire - Bionic Man]

gotta love those fleeting morning moments when you first wake up and dont remembet that the love of your life hates you and that you hate your life....maybe i should sleep more, and wake up less...off to work

[Music: Under a Killing Moon - Thrice]

on a decidedly brighter note....i am going to play guitar for bionic man. occasionally lead. it will be awesome. and ill prolly buy his marshall JCM900? maybe 800 for like $350....theyre $700 or more usually and you cant find them anywhere anymore...have to see....let it work out

what more can i do?
i cant be perfect forever
that assumes i was in the first place
sorry honey im far from it
i wish i could be for you

this rift comes on a bittersweet night
that tastes of sweat and perfume
the anger pierces everyhing i can say
how quickly moods will change
and this is the one time when
ill scream change is as bad as my singing

i had great plans for tonight but they didnt include
screaming at miscommunications
they didnt include a lonely night at home
pouring my heart out in a song

i wont see you for days
and you knew that would kill me
i was too busy, i fucked up
and the times i was sometimes thought
to be perfect, i watch them float away down the road
well look now, see me for who i really am,
an imperfect little boy missing without you

a friend too far - factory refurbished

[Hot Music of the Moment: Carve Your Heart Out Yourself - Dashboard Confessional]

so i got the new dashboard cd....its actually really good. more rock stuff now...kinda like further seems forever but better. rocks out. and came with a dvd.


this is the last time you'll hear me say it
so goddamnit stop playing me like i'm stupid
do you think i'm so blind?
its wonderful how you make up your mind like you've made it up
look at you now. You know your faking that look again
I know your faking "I love you"s again.

don't hesitate to say love isn't easy
just tell me the truth
tell me what you're thinking
don't tell me you're not
cos I can see it in your eyes
scorching away your heart
mauling the sleeve my heart was on

where were you when I believed in you
how could you get so far away at just a glance
i'm starting to feel your emptiness you left at my feet
no wait its all the tears I never should have cried for you

i'm convinced that you wont hold a grudge
you never had anything to lose
I heard you figured id lose everything
who knew id lose it all to you

you never did learn to just leave me alone
i've forgotten love and i'm not going to learn


lost and broken - a friend too far

[Music: Rapid Hope Loss - Dashboard Confessional]

different song from what im listening to...if you didnt know

I heard about your trip.
I heard about your souvenirs.
I heard about the cool breeze, in the cool nights,
and the cool guys that you spent them with.
Well I guess I should have heard of them from you.
I guess I should have heard of them from you.

Don't you see, don't you see,
that the charade is over?
And all the "Best Deceptions" and "Clever Cover Story" awards go to you.
So kiss me hard
'cause this will be the last time that I let you.
You will be back someday
and this awkward kiss that tells of other people's lips will be of service
to keeping you away.

I heard about your regrets.
I heard that you were feeling sorry.
I heard from someone that you wish you could set things right between us.
Well I guess I should have heard of them from you.
I guess I should have heard of them from you.

I'm waiting for blood to flow to my fingers,
I'll be all right when my hands get warm.Ignoring the phone,
I'd rather say nothing. I'd rather you'd never heard my voice.
too late to be graciousand you do not warrant long good-byes.
You're calling too late

fuck tonight....shit just isnt going right

[Music: Grain Of Salt - Poison The Well]

tiiiiiiiiiired.......tiiiiiiiiiired.....sleep

[Music: Stacey's Mom - Fountains of Wayne]

[Music: I Will Play My Game Beneath the Spin Light - Brand New]

The time has come for colds and overcoats. We're quiet on the ride, we're all just waiting to get home. Another week away, my greatest fear. I need the smell of summer, I need its noises in my ears. If looks could really kill, then my profession would staring. Please know we do this cause we care and not for the thrill. Collect calls to home to tell them that I realize that everyone who lives will someday die and die alone. And we won't let you in. Though we're down and out. We won't let you in. I wrote more postcards than hooks. I read more maps than books. Feel like every chance to leave is another chance I should have took. Every minute is a mile. I've never felt so hallow. I'm an old abandoned church with broken pews and empty aisles. My secrets for a buck. Watch me as I cut myself wide open on this stage. Yes, I am paid to spill my guts. I won't see home till spring. Oh, I would kill for the Atlantic, but I am paid to make girls panic while I sing. And we won't let you in. Though we're down and out.
We won't let you in. And we won't let you in. We don't want what isn't ours. We won't let you in. You win. And the coastline is quiet. While we're quietly losing control. Yes, we're silent but sure we invented the cure that will wash out my memories of her. "The harpoon is loaded. The cage is lowered. The water is red." Like you.

[Music: Play Crack the Sky - Brand New]

We sent out the SOS call. It was a quarter past four in the morning when the storm broke our second anchor line. Four months at sea, four months of calm seas only to be pounded in the shallows off the tip of Montauk Point. They call then rogues, they travel fast and alone. On hundred foot faces of God's good ocean gone wrong. What they call love is a risk, cause you will always get hit out of nowhere by some wave and end up on your own. The hole in the hull defied tthe crews attempts to bail us out. And flooded the engines and radio and half buried bow. Your tongue is a rudder. It steers the whole ship. Sends your words past your lips or keeps them safe behind your teeth. But the wrong words will strand you. Come off course while you sleep. Sweep your boat out to sea or dashed to bits on the reef. The vessel groads the ocean pressures its frame. Off the port I see the lighthouse through the sleet and rain. And I wish for one more day to give my love and repay debts. But the morning finds our bodies washed up thirty miles west. They say that the captain stays fast with the ship through still and storm. But this ain't the Dakota, adnt the water is cold. We won't have to fight for long. This is the end. This story's old but it goes on and on until we dissappear. Calm me and let me taste the salt you breathed while you were underneath. I am the one who haunts your dreams of mountains sunk below the sea. I spoke the words but never gave a thought to what they all could mean. I know that this is what you want. A funeral keeps both of us apart. You kno that you are not alone. Need you like water in my lungs. This is the end.

scars they cut into you
blisters rose colored hue
mayday we're going down
these mescaline memories are morose
your kerosene company is comatose

-vendetta red: shatterday

[Music: Standard Lines - Dashboard Confessional]

I am, of course, none other than blank verse. I don't know where I'm going, yes, quite right; And when I get there (if I ever do) I might not recognise it. So? Your point? Why should I have a destination set? I'm relatively happy as I am, And wouldn't want to be forever aimed Towards some future path or special goal. It's not to do with laziness, as such. It's just that one the whole I'd rather not Be bothered - so I drift contentedly; An underrated way of life, I find. What Poetry Form Are You?

[Music: The Great Disappointment - AFI]

I am 75% Emo

Holy gee whilikers... I am as emo as it gets... I will try to cheer the heck up and stop wiping my nose on my sweater...

Take the Emo Test at fuali.com

[Music: The Great Disappointment - AFI]

AFI !!!!!!!!!!!!! so good

[Music: Miseria Cantare (The Beginning) - AFI]

Dashboard Confessional
w/ MXPX ? Brand New ? Vendetta Red
@ A.U. Bender Arena ? Washington, DC
SUN. SEP. 7
$21.50

a little pricey but its gonna kick so much ass...vendetta red, brand new, aaaand dashboard...oh yeah...mxpx...eh theyre alright. oen thing though, theyre like 25 and already have a 10 year greatest hits album. crazy. btu yeah ive been chillin. yesterday i went to philly to visit drexel. it is suuuuuch a nice school. god i so want to go there. the music industry program is gonna be tight. and its got a co-op sophomore and junior years. where i could work in LA, NYC, or pretty much wherever there are jobs available in the music industry. recording, acoustics, sound reinforcement, mangement, promotions. oh and there's a student managed record label there. thats awesome. sooo yeah i just need the money cos its expensive as all hell....i mean dammmmn. oh well. ill see what i can do with loans and scholarships. if i cant, ill settle for GW, American, CUA, or UMD. all of which are free except for UMD, which is pretty cheap. i will just have to see. but good stuff. ive been riding my bike a lot. to get back in shape and the like. weeeell im off to breakfast cos im hungry as shiiiiit. out.

[Music: Torn - Poison The Well]

so yeah....people searched for a friend too far, and my blogger came up. and people keep asking if they can listen. well here it is. i am a friend too far. my lyrics. i have been recording and writing songs. soooo when they are done i will have a cd out. and they will be up on the internet. it wont be the beeest recording quality, unless i get a new mic and new sound card, but its good enough. ok. trired. out.

[Music: boombox generation - Motion City Soundtrack]

all good and a sexy guitar....title for a new song

[Music: My Favorite Accident - Motion City Soundtrack]

My new guitar!!! :)

[Music: The Best Deceptions - Dashboard Confessional]

well that was good. had a nice conversation with galina. havent really "talked" to her in soo long. shes an awesome person. kinda caught up. me and my damn nostalgia trips haha....conversation made me happy. new guitar made me happy too. epiphone les paul standard plus....fucking sweet guitar. but something is still missing. : / sigh...what to do

[Music: Guernica - Brand New]

damnit damnit fuck...so much pain....my arm is fucking killing me. advil had better kick in soon. i can take a lot of pain, but this is pushing it. saw tomb raider with ida tonight. it was alright. tomorrow is saturday. the weekend is finally here. gotta wake up early though so i can go get my learners renewed. haha im such a loser. still havent got my lisence yet. oh well. soon soon.

[Music: Paper Tigers - Thrice]

one liners from hell by the movielife

late night snowfall
get us to the hospital
jamestown 94 west
and a 40 hour train back to penn



i know its not fair what i've gotta do here
but i can see you the way i wanted to
i stand with the gun in my hand
so i can be you

and you did it so well
said you tasted the sin
if i walked a mile in your shoes
id have a gun in my hand

i understand that you couldnt take it
couldnt take it anymore
i understand that you had your problems
maybe more than i saw
but when you got on a plane that day
you lost all your priveleges with me
cuz i heard so many things, thought we parted
thought we parted peacefully

then you got home, opened your mouth
and said all those stupid things
you even mouthed off to my friends, thats why im saying

c'mon c'mon shut up shut up
i hope this song will shut you up
c'mon c'mon shut up shut up

[Music: Takin' It Out and Choppin' It Up - The Movielife]

an open conversation passes 20 minutes in silence. no words and bitterness. hiding. just sleep.

[Music: This Is Not an Exit - Saves the Day]

HA! im not so easily deterred. im not so blind either. good fucking night moon. its been a whille. im sorry. look at me.

[Music: Nightingale - Saves the Day]

sigh....stupid college issues...why cant everything just be easy?? huh? it would make life so much more simpler, adn well easier...less stressful for sure. ive just felt kinda incomplete. unfulfilled. something is missing and i dont know what. its rather annoying and depressing. just kinda wandering around not knowing what i want or need. sigh. so yeah ive been busy as usual. warped tour was fun. didnt get to see the used. meh, we were all tired. got a bunch of cds and a coheed shirt. got the guys from thrice to sign my cd. i miss my old friends. im gonna go back to church sunday. or i'll try. YRUU was fun. sunday at 10:30? so early but ill do it. i need to start doign the things i do. program, music, computer games. call people and be bored and talk. i gotta find whats not here. gotta figure out what it is i need to look for first. im at a loss...all confused. but for now ill just ignore it. its all i can do. all i really have any time to do anymore. i cant really do the things i like anymore. no time. i cant wait for my paycheck on monday....gettin me a new guitar...well maybe....maybe after the next two...i shall see. for now i record. out.

[Music: Cold Cash and Colder Hearts - Thrice]

im gonna party like theres no yesterday

shiiiiiiiiit....so tired. i got worked all day today really hard. went to the field 3...okay two times, but helping three different groups with their research and projects. helped thias with her methane gas chamber installation, went with katie and katie to do the project im working with....dig up 20 skunk cabbage plants roots and all....understand though that these plants are rather large...like 1/3 the size of me...deep strong roots. so we were diggin areound in the mud for a few hours. so after im dirty as fuck, tired as a dog, smelly, we go inside for lunch. i adequately satisfied my intense yearning for my regularly scheduled noon-time consumption of nourishment. ( i ate lunch with ida) that was good. i get to see her still even thought i work all the time. im glad. lets see. oh yea. then i go back inside and jonathon asks me to go back out to the field to help him collect some samples from the stream flow analyzers. that actually wasnt as bad as i would have thought. came back and went right to washing lots of stuff. i had a huge head ache the whole time. no i am exhausted. still gotta do some laundry. i got my new 120 gb hard drive today so im configuring that at the moment. i fixed ida's computer finally....after 3 days. stupid compaq being shitty. oh well its all good and better. its been like 2 weeks or something since i updated last. soo busy working. although im pullin at least$600 per pay check so its nice. just tired. warped tour is gonna rock. getting tickets tomorrow. sigh. as for now im sick. ida will come over and take care of me cos "im a helpless little boy" :p haha...i can do it myself thankyou very mucho. hm well now i muist be off to lay down.

...stay tuned, we'll be right back after these messages


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[Music: You Know How I Do - Taking Back Sunday]

maaan its been forever since i updated. ive been soo busy...got back from tour to atlanta and raleigh with bionic man, that was so awesome. then a 10 hour drive back from atlanta sunday night for work monday morning. haha so fucked. it was fun as shit nonetheless. had few beers with the guys. chilled. rocked out. so yeah im working so much and have no time. too much to do and no time to do it. same shit different day. but i get good ass money. $8.22/hr times 80 hrs per pay period. 660 or so. somewhere there. math in my head is hard this late at night...haha its only 10:45. so yeah. i see my ida whenever i can. i love just chilling. and food and going to movies. got starcraft. upgrading my computer. im always fucking with it. playign guitar all the time. jsut rockin out. i come to conclusions and cool stuff i could say in here but i forget. oh well. life is pretty darn good. just tired. need more sleep. well i hope all is good for everyone else. out.

[Music: meeting again for the first time - Poison The Well]

Threat rating: extremely low. You may think you can
subvert the government, but if you should try
you will be smited mightily because God likes
us best.


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wooooo! got to see my ida :) happy happy. hope i made your day better. oh. damnit. you have no internet, so you cant read this anymore :( scheise. well everyone else gets to :) so yeah. happy birthday to robert big man at 20. sorry i was working when you guys were going out. hope you had fun today. for now i am off. must sleep for work tomorrow. out.

[Music: Eleanor Rigby - Thrice]

this sucks...i get off work and she leaves for work at the same time :( and im leaving in three days....i dont see her enough....at least im not gone the entire month. that wouldve been horrible..jeez i dont what i wouldve done. well i eat ribs with you tonight :) we chill baby. hehe. out.

[Music: Punk Covers - Build Me Up Buttercup - Punk Covers]

hm, well ok. i dont know. so many thoughts. too many people to know. cant know em all i spose. well i know i cant.

so yeah its real late....im kinda tired...not too big of a day. the usual work, minus going out to the field and getting all muddyand sweaty and tired. came home, played on my copmuter like the huge dork i am :) now im fixing my computer and optimizing it and what not....i like blogger...new view goin on...and "pictures" of my old house...form the air....go to the link...i dont know, i get all nostalgic. come to think of it i get that way a lot these days. i made the page taht has the pics on it in like 5 minutes. it was great. i still know html even though i havent used it in forever....its all good. i gotta work on my program sometime...ive been neglecting it. i want to finish it. so what if the class is done. so yeah tour... should be fun. i gotta do some bass maitenance though. new strings and rewiring inside. shuoldnt be too hard. ah the used. those songs on the radio dont compare to the rest of the cd at all. so yeah...im gettin a second hard drive cos im running out of space. i filled 60 gigs...dont know how but i did...haha. oh well. its all good stuff. useful...
la de da...doo doo doo....now im bored....i like making my computer all fresh and optimized and clean and fast. its so nice to have everything work exactly the way its supposed to, even if its only for a day or two. ok time to restart...possibly sleep. out.

[Music: Blue and Yellow - The Used]

man im so tired...so tired im drunk...well im just mixing up all my words and losing the ability to speak.. i eat cake and pudding...

A Friend Too Far - better to never have loved at all

well i ask you this one last time
when is it time to go home again?
is it time for me to be alone again?
yeah well you never wrote anything down

how easy it is to forget who you are
when you dont take a snapshot...yeah,wait
ill take a slapshot at your heart
maybe one in a million ill hit my target
and maybe one in a million you'll love me again

ill be there right beside myself
trying to hold you all inside
im on top of an upside down world
buried my head in the sand
well yeah its warmer down here

ive lost it all
its better to have never loved it all
its better to scream at lonely mirrors
its better to have never loved at all
im better off forgetting everything you mean to me
ill rip down the walls you knew i couldnt climb


is it game over? ive lost all my lives
im all out of change...time to change
....always say never, never say always
and the world would be a safer place

ok so this thing might actually start to work on a regular basis. go w.bloggar. its pretty cool when it behaves. although computers always have a habit of never doing what you want them to when you want them to...well yeah work was good today...today is 7 months. quite a long time :) well i realized today, and i mean actually realized how much of an ass i was when i did drugs. i was always angry and in shitty moods, probably because of the drugs. well it also could have been that i was an adolescen boy whos always mad. or yeah. i was an ass. yeah its amazing how much ive changed over these years. high school actually doesnt suck. i like it. haha yeah i know im a dork. but its fun...mostly the social aspect of it and its fun to learn. oh well. hmm well i should be off to do something or other. oh yeah band practice. and NC, SC, and Atlanta on the 11th 12th adn 13th of july....its gonna rock so hard. some people are real bitchy. try to be nice and they just blow you off....see what drugs do to people? well not all people but a few i can think of...i need to get my lisence. jsut need hours. but im too busy now with fucking job. i can never win. i mean hey im content with the fact that i can drive...like i have the ability to...just i cant do it legally yet. it sucks. well yeah im out.

[Listening to: A Box Full of Sharp Objects - The Used - The Used (02:56)]

man work is exhausting...and i dont get to see my ida...stupid work. taking away my time :( its fun and all...just no iba...sigh...itll all work out...cos ill have bling bling. its so hot in here right now. time for the AC, dawg....hmm so yeah...not too much to write in here...im busy. tired. working. in love. the sims is fun....i fiiiinally got it to work on my computer....it was beign dumb..and i really dont know why...except that the graphics card might have not worked with it. buuut its still in my cpu, and it works now....soooo yeah i dont know. so for now i guess ill download more movies....well no io wont cos im running oiut of space...where's my pay check...stupid governemtn taking ass long to get it to me...hmpf...well im off to play games...asta la pasta


what warning label are you?


Music: Everything You Want - [Vertical Horizon]

yaaaay it wooorked

Music: Timberwolves at New Jersey - [Taking Back Sunday]

i love you

music: dashboard confessional - for you to notice...

I'm starting to fashion an idea in my head
where I would impress you
with every single word I said.
Would come out insightful or brave or smooth or charming
and you'd want to call me
And I would be there every time
you'd need me
I'd be there every time...
But for now I'll look so longingly
waiting...
For you to want me, for you need me, for you to notice me

man ive been so busy lately. work is fun but tiring. and it takes up so much time of my summer. i cant see my ida as much as i used to :( that sucks so much you dont even know. going from seeing her for so long every day, to seeing for a half hour at lunch, then for a little after work. just doesnt work. sigh. i will make time. it will all be the same. do not worry. itll all turn out nice...you'll see. i love you so much ida. im sorry sometimes im just completely exhausted and am a little grumpy. or if im not as chipper adn bouncy as i usually am. so yeah...work is good. i dont get paid til like 1.5 weeks after the pay period ends. so i dont get money for a long time :( damn government haha. well its good pay though. so now i wait for you to wake up. and i eat breakfast. out.

wooo...these last few days have been hectic...well not so much hectic as tiring. first three days of work. 24 hours of work already...i make $7.29/hr....good deal. and i work 8 hrs a day every day. bling bling hahaha. ok so now im home. downloading sooo much shit from people. gotta love broadband. but yeah. at work, the group im workin with is doing research into the nitrogen, phosphorus, and carbon uptake of plants. we're also seeing whether adding certain amounts of N, P, and/or C, will give rise to a larger number of plants. we're going to have to gather soooooo many samples. and we have to get on our hands and knees in 95 degree hit in the mud, and clip each sample species we find in each of 27 2x1 m plots. tiring as hell. but i like it for some reason :) so yeah. we're going to have to grind them up and "digest" them with sulfuric acid and test for the C, N, and P contents of the plant. fun stuff. cool people. tomorrow i go in at 7 or 7:30....gotta enter some data into excel. its a fun job. sucks cos i dont really have much time anymore. "we're the couple that never has time" :( ill make time....but ida's leaving. its all for a good cause and everything. i dont mind that she's leaving for it. but you know, i still will always want her to stay. but hey, its only 7 days....7 long ass days. sigh. i love her more and more every day. and yeah i said i wasnt going to put this "mushy" stuff up anymore. but hey. whatever. i love my ida :) off to eat ribs for dinner. and i gots a show tonight. 7:30 at the bionic man house in cottage city. be there, i will.

just some old quotes and stuff from archives...god some of the stuff i wrote. i was such a loser hahah. oh well.

"Advice is what we ask for when we already know the answer but wish we didn't." - Erica Jong

"One of the quickest ways to become exhausted is by suppressing
your feelings." - Sue Patton Thoele

"If you ever drop your keys into a river of molten lava, let 'em go, because, man, they're gone."
Jack Handey

I wish there was a knob on the TV to turn up the intelligence.
There's a knob called `brightness', but it doesn't work. - Gallagher

"It's always helpful to learn from your mistakes because then your mistakes seem worthwhile."
Garry Marshall

Be who you are and say what you feel because those that mind don't matter and those who matter don't mind. - Dr. Suess

A truth that's told with bad intent
Beats all the lies you can invent. - William Blake

What lies behind us and what lies ahead of us is nothing compared to what lies within us. - Oliver Wendell Holmes

"My life, my real life, was in danger, and not from anything other people might do but from the hatred i carried in my own heart" - James Baldwin

"every moment spent with you is a moment i treasure. i dont want to close my eyes. i dont want to fall asleep cos ill miss you babe, and i dont wanna miss a thing. cos even when i dream of you the sweetest dream will never do. i still miss you babe and i dont wanna miss a thing."



[ Monday, April 15 ]
good old kirby eating my floor and crawling through my walls
**(the big mouse's first appearance ;) )**

[04 Mar 2002|06:34pm]
so...ive decided that im gonna get an eyebrow ring....and grow me some dreds....ill prolly forget about my hair for a while and cut it....but ima try not too....hmm i had an ok day..im cold.... hahah old blogger (livejournal) entries...took me long enough for the eyebrow ring...dreds...yeah doesnt look like i have them now.

denial
anger
petitioning
depression
acceptance