i thought about it...and i really do have it all. my life right now is going so amazingly well. im loving it. im so happy. there's always stuff to be dealt with and i will deal with it *slash* figure it out when i get there. im having too much fun with life. my whole college career is paid for...either school i go to. im so lucky.
on another note. its interesting seeing people follow my exact footsteps from two years ago. bitching about the monotony of days, scarred by heartbreak, wanting to be alone. sound tracks to life. of course ive alwasy had a soundtrack to my life, since i was little. but i wish i could offer some advice of some sort. but there's nothing that will help. i did it on my own. so i dont know. seems like you need to change. your current attitude is lethal, and it must be overcome. its no way to live. if you want IM me and we'll talk about it.

other news, if you (someone in specific) read this, i did it because i missed the feeling of really doing it. really holding on. haha and its funny. no one has any idea of what im talking about.
but yeah, im living life to the fullest. got so much shit planned. jazz course at UMD over the summer (theyre paying for it, $2000), five day bike trip down the 185 mile C&O Canal with the UMD TENTS program, and canoe trip with andrew prolly in the Pine Barrens in New Jersey. fuck yeah. im happy. genuinely.

[In Her Bedroom - Story Of The Year]