ooh look a post...finally. the new jimmy eat world is pretty fuckin sweet. workin. schoolin. fallin down stairs. getting salts in cuts. got a hug. gotta find courage. the usual. and im. doing the usual. one. word. "sentence" crap. yup. things are nice. gotta go test drive some vehicles this weekend. its up between, cadillac el dorado touring sedan, lincoln towncar, explorer, rodeo. we'll see.
Jimmy Eat World - Work
Friday, January 28, 2005
Thursday, January 20, 2005
Tuesday, January 18, 2005
Hey, I guess I'll figure it out
The reasons why things went the way they did
And why we can't accept it
We'd fall asleep
But not before we'd exercise
The evil thing that everyone hides
We would lie there in my bed
Do you remember all those nights we never slept?
No clothes, sweaty
Doing all the things I never thought I'd do
And I did them for you
And hey, don't feel bad
But what can ever take away the boardwalk trips or us away
I think we grew up
Past the hang-ups and the evil stares
The fuck you too's and I don't care's
Hey, I guess I'll figure it out
The reasons why things went the way they did
And why we can't accept it
We'd fall asleepBut not before we'd exercise
The evil thing that everyone hides
We would lie there in my bed
Do you remember all those nights we never slept?
And even though we brought it crashing to an end
I loved it all, and now I love my friend
I loved it all, I loved the girl, I love my friend
The reasons why things went the way they did
And why we can't accept it
We'd fall asleep
But not before we'd exercise
The evil thing that everyone hides
We would lie there in my bed
Do you remember all those nights we never slept?
No clothes, sweaty
Doing all the things I never thought I'd do
And I did them for you
And hey, don't feel bad
But what can ever take away the boardwalk trips or us away
I think we grew up
Past the hang-ups and the evil stares
The fuck you too's and I don't care's
Hey, I guess I'll figure it out
The reasons why things went the way they did
And why we can't accept it
We'd fall asleepBut not before we'd exercise
The evil thing that everyone hides
We would lie there in my bed
Do you remember all those nights we never slept?
And even though we brought it crashing to an end
I loved it all, and now I love my friend
I loved it all, I loved the girl, I love my friend
Friday, January 14, 2005
like someone wise once told me, "You weren't made to be number two." it inspired me. except i'm at work so i can't be at home practicing. oh well. fuck it. i will be number one. i wont wait around. i wont settle for second best. if i dont get into the school of music at UMD, fuck that. I'll just transfer to Berklee College of Music in Boston. that's where i would like to go anyway. gotta do what i do best. gotta practice. theres always someone better. I aim to not let that happen.
Tuesday, January 11, 2005
ok so maybe i've figured it out? ill just fuck living in the past...i get so tied up in remembering old times and old happiness that i often forget the present and future. im looking for happiness in the past and trying to get back there. but its gone. its dead. its over. whats done is done. you live you learn. i need to actually apply that and learn from what ive done. ive done so much that i really wish i hadnt. fucked up so many things, said so many fucked up things. but hey at least now i know not to do it again. it pains me so much i dont think i could. it already started. two times ive had the ability to do something again...i didnt. something in me couldnt. well maybe im learning. listening to whats goin on. considering the consequences. but lets see. i went from a point of not caring about much other than myself, to nearly a complete altruist; that was wholly unhealthy. then i had a pretty good balance but lost it. i dont know im rambling. i have noting to say. im working on things. its tough.
Tuesday, January 04, 2005
Monday, January 03, 2005
im no good at lying and youre too good at comebacks...
its thinking that gets us in trouble and sleep that saves us
who needs a fucking heart anyway? its a worthless fucker
so fragile, so cold sometimes. so naked and so empty.
so useless. homewrecker. life ender. you beat every day.
now its my turn to beat the fuck out of you for fucking me over.
piece of shit.
not really angry. in case you were wondering...ranting? yes.
its thinking that gets us in trouble and sleep that saves us
who needs a fucking heart anyway? its a worthless fucker
so fragile, so cold sometimes. so naked and so empty.
so useless. homewrecker. life ender. you beat every day.
now its my turn to beat the fuck out of you for fucking me over.
piece of shit.
not really angry. in case you were wondering...ranting? yes.
Sunday, January 02, 2005
lets see...which out of state school can i transfer to and start my life over? any suggestions? my past here haunts and torments me daily. i seem to have inadevertantly created a reputation that i abhor. i have the worst time getting through the days dealing with it all. it's alwasy in the back of my mind constantly reminding me of the life i wanted to leave behind. but that seems to follow me wherever i go. fuck it. go on without me, ill hold here. the more you say im not like the others, the harder you try to take my hand and go and then you say i cant play this game forever. you are the king of killers. ive seen what you do. carving through the hearts and souls of many. with cloven hoofs you stomp the dreams of men, of men far greater than me. I'm not going, I'll hold there. im done. this is done. fuck you nostalgia. i was so naive and got trapped in your illustrious grasp. thsi is the day that i opened my eyes so wide that it nearly took my life away and im finally seeing all the things that ive been missing. could it really be that i have been so blind or just merely looking the other way. today the world comes into focus and the hardest truth that i have ever known grabs me by the throat....This world will run right through you This world will run you through. fuck. fuck fuck. time to move on. soaked through with gasoline with a hollowpoint thruth in hand.